Why Am I Here?

Do you ever wonder how you got into a situation that you are in?  Sometimes I find myself like that. As a matter of fact my last few weeks have been exactly like that. I have so much on my plate with different projects I am involved in. I wonder sometimes why my mouth just can't utter the word "no". I know that I am not alone in this. Tons of people have the same problem.

But the fact of the matter is I really feel that all the things I am involved in are worthwhile and that I am in each of them for a reason. Then I catch myself thinking "Am I thinking too highly of myself or is this true"? I have prayed about this and tend to find peace at the time but then the tiredness and stress returns as the day wears on and I find myself doubting my abilities again.

I need to remind myself that if I let God, He will help me through my days. I think all of us need to remember that we are not alone. As Christians our goal is to spread the sweet presence of the Christ, who lives in us, as we go about our busy days. 

The scriptures are full of instances where God helps people through their days and the trials they are going through, but I love this reminder of what our God is truly leading us to do......

2 Corinthians 2:14

Common English Bible (CEB)

14 But thank God, who is always leading us around through Christ as if we were in a parade. He releases the fragrance of the knowledge of him everywhere through us.

So, our days may be busy, and we may feel that we are not adequate to the tasks and jobs we are facing. I know sometimes I wonder what God was thinking in using me, but the one sure thing we can know is that He will be there for us to lead us in this parade of life and give us the strength and wisdom we need to get the job done. 

And as we move with this God given confidence maybe others will see our peace that comes from Christ, and maybe they will want the same confidence too. Sharing our peace would be the most wonderful task we could ever be led to do!


Blessings and Peace Sweet Friends!  

Bite My Tounge

There are times as a pastor's wife that I need to bite my tongue. I know that some things are not worth stirring up and that the situation will resolve itself, more times than not, with time and patience. The hardest times for me are when things are said about my husband, that are not true, and my wife defenses want to stand up to scream to defend him.

I'm not saying that pastor's are perfect. I'm not saying that they don't make mistakes. I know that they are just as human as the rest of us. They live in glass houses, though, and are scrutinized and judged more than anyone can imagine. We spouses have some of that but we can escape behind the curtain in the glass house. But it never seems to be pulled for the pastor.

I have seen my husband go through some tough things in our marriage. Life is not always fair. But he has always held his head up and remained strong, maybe just for me, but he never seems to lose his way and can always see that things will be better tomorrow.

 I do have to admit that there is one thing that does seem to bring him down a little and that is when his motives are being questioned. He does not do anything in a rash manner and thinks everything through. Sometimes this drives me crazy because there I times I want to lead with my emotions and do not want to think things through. But he never wants to do anything that would bring shame to the Lord. He is a good good man.

Every minister that I have ever known, who truly is doing the work of the Lord, is the same in this. They know that what they are doing is something they feel God is telling them to do. They all have such hard times when what they are doing is called into question.

I can't do much, except pray, about the other pastors. But I, as Rodney's wife, can and will support him whole heartedly. Because I know his heart. I know his love for his savior. I know his love for his family. I know his love for his country. And I know his love for his flock!!  He is, without a doubt, the kind of man God has called him to be!  

One thing I do, when he is saddened is to go to God and seek a gentle word to say to my husband. Also I remind Rodney that as he leads he is never alone. Of course he has me, but I really mean God. I remind him (although he already knows) that He will help and see him through. Moses reminded Joshua of the very same thing......

Deuteronomy 31:7-8

Common English Bible (CEB)

7 Then Moses called Joshua and, with all Israel watching, said to him: “Be strong and fearless because you are the one who will lead[a] this people to the land the Lord swore to their ancestors to give to them; you are the one who will divide up the land for them. 8 But the Lord is the one who is marching before you! He is the one who will be with you! He won’t let you down. He won’t abandon you. So don’t be afraid or scared!”

It is amazing to be with Rodney in the ministry. It is amazing to see how he is being used to lead others as they show the love of Christ. It is amazing to watch as God goes before him and protects and directs him. I know he and I wouldn't trade this life for anything, glass house and all. But because I love him so fiercely, sometimes I do have to bite my tongue!!!


Blessings!!